Wednesday, 23 March 2016

Happy

I've been meaning to update this blog and communicate through poetry how my favorite person is keeping me happy but over analyzing of how I'd make it aesthetically palatable has gotten the best of me over the course of the first quarter of the year.

What encouraged me now is the very reason why I created this blog - a time capsule for myself. I would want to document even through a mundane thing such as a blog post about my affective side. I'd leave the cognitive side to my resume.

Five months in to the relationship and I've never felt so thankful, so lucky to have met a patient, intelligent, and sensitive man. Suddenly days are more tolerable, my fears are less scarier to face, the future sounds more exciting and I'm a lot more content than ever. 

My anxiety still looms over me at times but I try my best to pacify it. I have gotten more secure knowing my favorite person is holding my hand every step of the way.

Saturday, 17 October 2015

Okay



Slept 'til twelve in the afternoon today
No-show at work for three days this week
But I'm okay

Smile with classmates and colleagues
Sniff by myself when I reminisce
I'm okay

Let's leave it at that
Letting go of our future and of the past

We'll be okay
It was an unsolvable problem anyway

Wednesday, 7 October 2015

Solace in Coldplay and Dido


















Everything you do, they were all yellow
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

For you I'll bleed myself dry
I won't put my hands up and surrender
I'm in love and always will be

All the things you do
All that was there will be there still
I'm in love and always will be

Tuesday, 6 October 2015

In a Limbo



I'm losing passion talking to you."
"Ouch", was all I could utter.
Is it falling apart? I wondered.


"I want to be honest so we can find a solution."
"Do I bore you?" I asked and fell silent.
"Yes", he answered. It left me flabbergasted.


"I just need space to sort out my issues."
He assured me that he is monogamous.
Even reminded me he was ever-amorous.


"It's never your fault, you are perfect."
A sentence meant to comfort.
It was in vain, it did nothing of the sort.


A nightmare that hasn't ended.
Numbing myself to play pretend.

Tuesday, 8 September 2015

Unbound

chained under water, gasping for air
you adjust to the cold even if it's unfair

in the vastness of the sea, i found you
you looked at me and i forgot all blues

I haven't got a saw, I can't find the key
breathe through my mouth, don't give up on me

this struggle is beyond me, you tell me to pray
in the darkness of the deep, opportunities lay

your heartbeat is majestic to my ears
can we be together amidst our fears

creatures swimming around think we'll drown
yet we're sustained with a love that knows no bounds


Tuesday, 1 September 2015

An Ode to Him



Do you know how you make me feel?
Double sixty beats per minute - so much zeal.

Do you know when we talk,
a beautiful chaos builds in my mind - utter bliss

When we see each other once or twice a week,
I see my future and giggle for when we kiss.

And when you call me baby, darling, or love,
you are the chocolate I want an unlimited serving of.

I want to love you until the sun explodes in five billion years -
no other force can stop me, hoping to age with you, my dear.

Wednesday, 22 April 2015

Prognosis for Peaceful Meals

My sister can be described as an equal rights advocate - her ideals fashioned after her education in the country's top state university. A liberal college hippie so to speak. My dad on the other hand portrays the role of right-wing extremist Bill O'Reilly - ideals wrought by his conservative interpretation of the Bible compounded by extensive historical and political reading, away from society sparked by his poor social skills at large.

Weekly lunch dates can be a drudgery with the two heavily consumed in antagonistic political commentary seemingly interminable  and I play the role of an automaton bobbing my head in a fast motion at my desire to speed up the speeches respectively, and to, despite my love for Article III Section 4 of the Philippine constitution, direly enjoy my meal and get by another lunch date in one piece if not in peace in spite of my dysfunctional family.

Sometimes crying abounds after an arbitrary exchange of words delivered in raised voices and irate facial expressions. My prognosis? Eat humble pie to pour oil on troubled waters because being family is being stuck with each other until the day you rest on your deathbed.

Tuesday, 21 April 2015

Climbing in the Philippines



An IMC Project: Mt. Pulag - Valentines Day, 2014

It's an amazing process of self-discovery to hike in a country that offers various mountainous regions and each mountain promising a unique adventure.

Up to now, climbing has been a great way to push myself  harder and to  knockout negative notions I have about myself. It has been a reason to bond with friends, meet new ones and learn from the group dynamics. It's a great way to go back to basics and appreciate nature firsthand to be able to effectively and proactively preserve it. Peace is radiated through me when I climb encouraging me to do it over and over again.

In climbing, every moment is cherished and every lesson is treasured.

True to the poster I made for my Graduate program course on Integrated Marketing Communications, I have climbed ten mountains in a span of twelve months between 2013 to 2014. Here are some of the recorded memories from those climbs.


1. Mt. Tagapo - 438 masl
    Talim Island, Laguna de Bay

First time hikers: Nina, Lets and Myself 

First time campers: Maan, Nina and Myself



2. Mt. Sembrano - 745 masl
    Pililia, Rizal

The tree pose that started it all 



3. Mt. Pico de Loro - 664 masl
    Maragondon, Cavite + Nasugbu, Batangas

The climb that sparked valuable friendships



4. Hike for Maan to get inked by Mambabatok - Wang-Od
    Buscalan, Kalinga

Badass = Maan

Original cast of Tuna and Friends 



5. Mt. Maculot - 930 masl
    Cuenca, Batangas

Jessie!

A writer, A scientist, A banker, 2 future doctors and 2 engineers



6. Mt. Batulao - 811 masl
    Nasugbu, Batangas

with 3 Food Technology practitioners

Maan got swag



7. Mt. Tarak -  1,130 masl
    Mariveles, Bataan

Pre-Pulag Climb

"explorer"

TNF official photographer: Hanna Banana



8. Mt. Pulag - 2,922 masl
    Bokod, Benguet

Sunrise by the Sea of Clouds

Seeing the Cloud of Sea


-10◦C temperature



9. Pico de Loro Take Two

This is what happens when Prof. Joey is late

Couple rash guard

Jessie and Hanna

The challenging monolith



10. Mt. Makiling Traverse - 1,090 masl
      Sto. Tomas, Batangas and Los Banos, Laguna  

Fear of limatik wiped away at the click of the camera

Cover photo-worthy

Fearless Jess


Monday, 6 April 2015

Dawning Realism

FADE IN:

EXT. THE NEIGHBORHOOD - DAY

Paul and Inns are walking at the busiest street to get Japanese food
after having Korean ice-cream.

                                  Inns
            That was once a meat shop
            then it became an eatery. 
            Now it's trying to be something.

                                Paul
            Trying to be something. If my life had
            a title, that would be it. First the laundromat,
            now this. Are we moving in together?

                                Inns
            Don't flatter yourself.

                                Paul
            Are you cheesy? Here's a bougainvilla
            flower.

                                Inns
            Put it away.

EXT. A COMMERCIAL ESTABLISHMENT - MIDNIGHT

Khan and Inns en route home after a spending the entire day with friends.

                                Khan
             Bouquet of flowers. Are you
             the cheesy type?

                                Inns
             I'd rather receive a letter. It lasts longer.
             Can we be swift? I may have a tazer but
             it's still a dangerous place.
                                Khan 
             Actually, there's a reason why I brought you
             to this dark, abandoned area.

                                Inns
             Crazy.

INT. A BOOKSTORE - EVENING

Lee and Inns meet upon braving the wrath of rush hour traffic.

                   
                                Inns
             Not all the time, crazy.

                                Lee
             It's true. The way to find out if
             he's a keeper is if he treats you like
             a princess even after sleeping with you.

                                Inns
             Okay, noted.

                                Lee
             Do drugs. Sleep around. Have a crisis
             of faith. Do a 180, get therapy and then meet
             a decent guy at one of the therapy sessions.

                              Inns
             I've just had my birthday.                               

                              Lee
             Oh wow, happy 48th! You should treat me then.

                              Inns
             Shut up. You treat me.

                              Lee
             Okay. Coffee?

INT - THE OFFICE - AFTERNOON

The temperature's chilly at Inn's office. Ping goes her social media messenger notification.
  

                                 Jay
               Busy? Coffee? 

                                 Inns
              Just because a girl is nice sometimes,
              Does not mean that's she's interested.
              It can also mean, a. she's being polite.
              b. she's feeling sorry for you.

                                 Jay
              You're always mad. Chill. I'm just being
              nice, and you're just being polite.
              So, coffee?

                                 Inns
              I'm busy. Sorry.


EXT. - THE NEIGHBORHOOD  - DAWN

Inns is stationary jogging waiting for her jogging partner.

                                 Lucs
               You know, I thought you were
               going to be busy yet hoped against it.

                                 Inns
               Not for you. Let's run.

                                                                                                           FADE OUT

                                THE END
                                                             

Friday, 20 February 2015

Stress Alleviation

Stresses in life can easily be outmaneuvered by cutting connections with the root of the stress. Shutting out the wrong people. But how do you identify who's unhealthy for you?

If you knew me back in high school, I'd had an infamous image of being mataray. I didn't see the point of befriending classmates who had a reputation for cheating, skipping class, drinking and engaging in intercourse at such a young age. I did not see the point of callously entertaining just about any male who thinks I'm 'smart' or 'girlfriend material'. I just never saw the point.

Just as a politician is with taking an unpopular stand on a controversial issue, I took in negative feedback and I had my fair share of classroom taunting. I did cry. I did think about switching schools at a point but I refocused my lenses on them - their idea of fun and friendship as hedonistic and them reaping zero harvests at zero investment after and I felt sorry. Today, we are civil toward each other and although they've become mothers and fathers in their teenage years and have not gotten diplomas and degrees, they do seem happy.

Fast forward to the workplace and who knew that my work would not be spared of abundant, immature, and inarticulate males. If they think that the technique to getting a girl's attention is to tease her day in and day out, they are in over their heads. So I changed tact and chose to ignore unless the dialogue presupposes business then yes I'm up for it otherwise, a simple morning greet would elicit a cold three-second stare.

It's tricky at first because no one wants to be perceived as arrogant but the benefits of not having to be on guard at an intellectual and emotional provocation is like the feeling I get after working out. It feels hella good.

If I don't learn anything from a person, when I'm not challenged to think, If I feel less about humanity let alone myself when I'm around someone, then it becomes pointless and I cut all communication to alleviate stress.

Tuesday, 18 November 2014

The Aftertaste

Your absence caused rain
Your reason pulsated hurt and disappointment through my vessels
'I'm missing you' you utter
Yet everything isn't the same

You kept talking despite the rain
'Maybe it's my fault', you grappled
But you never brought an umbrella
Clarity was elusive and I came home sick and in pain

Our plans faded along with false charms
We got to savor the sweetness even if it didn't last long
I want to shake your hands
Whisper to you my fears and my hearts demands

Yet I sealed my sentiment with a stamp
You chose not to respond
No regrets, no wishful thinking,
We both just became bland





Monday, 19 May 2014

A Pig in a Poke




At the dining table, across a voracious reader animatedly relaying his book conquests, words abound with learning about that culture, the plot-twists, that man, the woman, and that creature.

I am looking down, staring at my food, fiddling with my spoon. Lifting my head, meeting his eyes, unbeknownst to him that my mind wandered elsewhere, my eyes intent, successful in seeming they care. I abhor doing this but It can't be helped, I would also like to give as much as take.

I pause. I wouldn't want someone adrift whilst I talk.

New to the land, to the office and me, that afternoon what separated him and me was a table, our food and hot green tea.

He majors in Finance and I couldn't even properly compute the division of the tab at hand. A natural klutz I even spilled the tea I was pouring unto his cup. The waitress feeling embarrassed for me, looked at me gently and I felt reassured thinking that it can't go any more bad.

I took an abortive pause. Steeped in what could be a date disaster, I quickly engaged him in a light dialogue.

I initiated it as a favor. Confused with how I felt at the time, dining was replete with rants and vents and this wasn't the first occasion. He's the intermediary between my thoughts and the guy in question. We both know what we have is platonic and for that I'm grateful.

I paused. I thought you can have males as friends after all.

Fairly new to me, I expressed interest in the proposition. Indiscriminate of the intention, I said, how can it hurt, it's spectating, talking and eating though can be done alone, I answered in the affirmative without hesitation.

Expressing hostility is not something I want to do but it was due to a provocation. I'm not cut to play games and that was the resolution.

I took a pause during the listening and I hesitated with what I saw.

An eminent rejector and an occasional rejectee, this is the attempt, an openness to what could be. I abjure the high probability that it might be time-wasted but I won't ever abrogate the chance, though small that a lasting connection is formed.







Monday, 24 February 2014

The Breakable Fortress



'You should stop talking about he-who-must-not-be-named', my sister says, her eyes gravely addressing mine like a child reprimanded for breaking the living room vase.

'Are you trying to tell me that I'm an annoying-ass-person?' I ask, even if I know that the answer is yes. I've gotten too many eye rolls from friends, 'wasting-your-time-on-him' advice from my mom every time I bring him up. I can't blame them. He is the political unrest in Syria of international news, and the bombings in Mindanao of national news - nothing but negative and retrogressive.

'It's not for us, it's for you. This is so unhealthy. You're living in the past,' she asserts. I look at her and think to myself that she's more the adult than myself.

I told her, 'I'm not in love with him. I'm in love with the idea of him. Actually no. He is this fortress I've built around myself, like a turtle shell. I conveniently hide under my shell for fear of what is to come. The downside of it is that I've successfully tricked myself into thinking that I'm in love with my shell when logically, it can't feel, it can't love me back.

With a clear mind now, I ponder at the reason of why I liked him in the first place. He does not seem interested in what I have to say. He talks about other women in front of me, he even went to mention 'beauty and brains' women that he is interested in and he does it nonchalantly too, as if I'm not there.

Then I realized, there are plenty of people who are genuinely interested in what I have to say, I know of someone who sweetly asked me about my blog. The idea that someone is interested in my thoughts, my ideas help me in chiseling the sturdy fortress I've been suffocating in.

A Monday



The significantly low temperature made me think twice about getting out of bed. Wrapped up in my wool blanket curled in a fetal position with my cheek against my pillow, my bed was the ultimate temptation for sleeping in. I still had to get up though. It's the first Monday of the new year after all.

The sun was behind an array of grey clouds. As if that wasn't gloomy enough, my call time at work is at 9am and only at exactly 9am sharp do I leave the house. What an utter disregard for the cliche 'new year, new me' anthem. I was never one to draft new year's resolutions anyhow.

I bid my lola good bye and kiss her cheek as is the usual routine every morning before I leave work.
She watches by our gate until I get a pedicab. As the pedicab makes a u-turn headed towards the gate of our village I wave and smile at her.

I am now left to myself and this is how it is every five days a week for an hour or so of commute. An hour of contemplation if not reading in between commutes -the latest conquest being Erich von Daniken's Chariots of the Gods.

The pedicab ride to get to our subdivision's gate takes around five minutes in one straight street as our house's. The wind was blowing strongly that day. The driver was silent. I usually look ahead, breathing in whatever oxygen the assortment of trees on our street can offer before the pollution whacked at me by pujs.

I then see a police officer questioning the newspaper vendor at the right side of the street. I look left and see another police officer questioning three residents outside their home. The pedicab continue to drive past and I see a group of people crowded at the left side of the street. They had blank faces that expressed solemnity. I look right and a fewer number of people were looking at the other side and some at me having the same blank faces. I look left again and then I immediately got goosebumps at what I saw.

In front of the bakery was a corpse under a tan colored sheet. There was a motorcycle three meters left of the corpse and it between the motorcycle and the corpse was a middle-aged woman of Middle Eastern descent crying and a Middle-aged man kneeling by her knees facing her, crying as well. I look at the corpse again and I see bright red blood oozing from his head. Splattered on the floor are brain meat.

Looking away, I felt disgust at how humanity can be so cruel. A witness to a violation of what separates man from animal, though shocked, a surprising calmness blanketed my fear. Selfish as it might seem, a bit detached I must admit, I had to be calm and not entertain thoughts of fear. I have got to get used to a world where man has the capacity to either be pure or evil. I had to be ready, I still had to go to work, I still have to live and it's just the beginning of the week.

Thursday, 20 February 2014

A Principle


I woke up to screams in the middle of the night. I was six years old vacationing in Brunei where my parents worked. I got up from the comfortable queen-sized bed I was sleeping in. I saw my dad standing by the door of the walk-in closet. He was pointing aggressively at my mother with his devil-like face shouting angrily at my mom. I walked past him and saw my mom seated at the floor of the walk-in closet, her eyes all swollen. I sat at her lap. I didn't know what to do, It was difficult to understand. I just knew that I had to remember to make light of it someday.

I climbed up to the second story of my Lola's house in Bicol. I was still six. I climbed up to tears. My mothers'. She was sitting on a cushion at the hallway. My Lola, along with my Titas and Titos surrounded her sympathetically. My dad was standing in the middle, once again with his devilish face, roughly pressing his point-finger at my mom and angrily uttering hurtful things. I forgot what I did, I forgot what was said, but I remember the sad, concerned faces. I remember my mom's reddish face from her continious crying. That I could remember.

I was in first grade and woke up one day to news of my dad to be deported from Brunei because he beat up my mom again but someone had to the courage to report it to authorities. Only then did I understand.

Upon comprehension are emotions I strongly felt; I felt relief and anger. At least he can't hurt her anymore. At least she won't cry anymore. She can cry of other reasons but not from pain caused by someone who was supposed to love her.This was was relief. I also felt a nagging feeling of anger towards my dad. Maybe because I wanted to understand why he did those things. I wanted to know why he was capable of doing hurtful things to my own mom and his own love. I wanted to know why a thinking human being would be so adamant and primitive to be able to inflict physical and verbal pain on someone he is supposed to love. I felt anger and shame at the fact that he is my dad. Why did he have to be my dad I remember recalling.

I grew up to a dysfunctional family. I have five half siblings and one full sibling. We all grew up together at my Lola's on my mother's side. All our dads were absent up to a certain point that is. My eldest kuya seperated from his wife. His wife cheated on him and now has another family. He on the otherhand is with a girlfriend right now. Second to our eldest, another kuya also seperated. He cheated on his wife and is currently building a different family now.

I used to believe in forever. I used to believe in the ideal. When I say I don't believe in marriage, it's not because I don't want to be tied-up. It's not because I want to sleep around but it is because I don't believe in forever. Nobody respects the sanctity of marriage anymore at the rate of people getting legally seperated, annulled and divorced. So let's save the money, the time and effort. Let's save the heartache and not commit in forever because there is no such thing.

If a person is willing to stick it out with me forever that'll be a gem. If the idea of dating me forever doesn't appeal to you, I won't stop you. If you want to have kids, build a family, don't let me stop you from your dream. I just don't ever want to wake up and be the one crying and be the object of screams.

Wednesday, 4 December 2013

Best Trip Ever / Maan's Pamamanhikan

Of  Tuna Sandwiches

Dean: Para san uli yung Diatabs? Kailangan ko eh.
Carlo: May cr ba dito?
Prof. Joey: Nakita ko pinakain nila sa *whispers* yung tirang tuna spread.
Carlo: Oh may hike uli, baka itapon nanaman ni Joey yung cucumber.
Me: Malapit na ako magtayo ng tuna sandwich business.
Prof. Joey: Dapat sa bundok ang location mo para wala kang competition. 

Of Man's Bestfriend

Marvin: Pwede ba ang gulay sa aso?
Patrick: Oo. Chocolate lang naman ang nakakamatay sa aso eh.
Dean: Pera nalang kung saksakin mo. Tignan lang natin kung hindi mamatay 'yan.
Prof. Joey: Ba't naman diyan pa sa gitna ng kalye nagkamot yung aso.
Dean: Sa sobrang kati kasi okay lang kahit mamatay na siya, makamot lang.

Of Male Homosexuality

Dean: *gestures Oh no you didn't hand gesture*
Me: Galing mo. Sana naging bakla ka nalang.
Maan: Please?
Marvin: Pasaway ako nun sa work eh. Di ako pumapasok. Sabi ng boss ko, ibibigay daw niya ang lahat pumasok lang ako.

Of Dean's Age

Dean: Grabe. Akala ni Carlo at Prof. Joey 26 na ako.
Me: Bakit? Ilang taon ka na ba?
Dean: *walks out*
Of MJs

Dean: Ano feeling ng high?
Maan: Habang nagkkwento ka, alam mo yung sa movies? Yung naka timelapse yung mga boring and insignificant scenes, parang ganon.
Dean: Wow. Boring and insignificant? That's me! Ako yun! Guys, ba't niyo pa ba ako sinama?

Tuesday, 3 December 2013

Hike to Mt. Palay Palay/Pico de Loro

Jump by Van Halen up and under. Fade from black: Maan, Marvin, Dean and yours truly in a circle: serious, silent, avoiding eye contact and stretching without team coordination. Eye contact commences. Cut to group laughter.

The hike was at Mt. Palay Palay in Maragondon, Cavite where the famous Pico de Loro is located on the fateful day of the 28th of September.

From our meet-up point, we, the awesome foursome rode an fx to Ayala costing Php45. From Ayala we rode a bus to get to Coastal Mall which cost Php12. We then rode another bus headed for Ternate, Cavite at Php82. Next mode of transport was a tricycle headed for DENR Maragondon costing Php300. Registration fee cost Php20 and about an hour into the hike we had to pay another Php25 registration fee for the community.

The trail was conveniently easier compared to that of Mt. Sembrano's. The pressure of having to reach the summit and getting down from it in 3 hours, as was the fastest time of one of Marvin's hikes with his friends was what was daunting.

We occasionally stopped to eat banana and talked about a wealth of topics: How Ebe Dancel's music is solid, the PDAF scam, politically apathetic students revealed by an episode on WOTL, Barangay Elections, a recently discovered extreme sport called bouldering, social science experiments, mixed-martial arts, marathon running, yoga, the belief in aliens and douche-bags at the office.

Upon reaching the summit, at 664 meters above sea level,the monolith -a giant rock formation shaped as its name -Parrot's beak is instantly seen along with the view of Caraballo Mountains northward, Nasugbu Batangas due south, Maragondon to the east and South China Sea due west.

I've set my mind to not climbing the monolith and true to my word, I didn't and was in charge over watching our belongings while my three compadres braved it.

Five minutes into waiting alone, another group of four people stumbled upon me whilst I was waiting under my umbrella, they were Rod, Carlo, Prof. Joey and Jessie. A group of people our age, with better camera. :)

(c) Prof. Joey
Both groups were instant friends and we hiked downhill to get to the waterfalls where Marvin guided us to.

After they cooled off at the waterfall, we happily hiked through the familiar terrain headed for the jump-off point at DENR, freshened up and partook of my tuna sandwich baon and headed for home sweet home.


Monday, 4 November 2013

Hike to Mt. Sembrano

We did say that hiking was going to be a monthly activity for our group. We failed to take into consideration our workload, the availability of friends and the weather condition.

Nonetheless we have successfully hiked again and reached the summit of Mt. Sembrano located in Pililia, Rizal.

Although Nina and Letlet weren't present, we were blessed enough to be accompanied by four people who have made the hike worthwhile and most importantly, safe.

Of my El Hombre buddies, Maan was the only one up for the challenge. Nina claimed that she was, except that she had an "interview" that very same day. Letlet refused to be coerced into coming, asserting that she can't in retrospect to her fainting and barfing on our hike to Mt. Tagapo.

Maan and I hiked with Keneth, a high school classmate and his friend Keen who despite having a torn ACL bravely served as our guide. According to him, it's his fourth climb to Mt. Tagapo. The two others were Marvin, a friend of Keen who intimidated us with his Vibram shoes. He said it's ideal for hiking because the grip on the ground is much more firm, as if one is barefoot. His friend was Yayi, who has hiked seven times already this year. She's a nice Bicolana who works as an accountant but claims she's not good with handling her own money.

From our village, we took a jeep headed to Tanay Market costing Php38. Upon reaching the market Keneth had breakfast at the local karenderia, Marvin and Yayi bought bread at a bakery. Keneth and Keen were heavy smokers so I always saw them smoking.

We then rode a jeep headed to Pililia Rizal and had ourselves dropped off at the Malaya Barangay Hall. We then registered our names and contact numbers and paid Php20 each. We set off for our hike at 6:45am. Getting to Mt. Sembrano were houses and a concrete road that was steep. I had to catch my breath and about 3 minutes into walking I joked that it was time for us to go down and go home.

There was a point in our hike where there were locals riding a horse with baskets attached to the sides. We paused and positioned ourselves on the sides first. Maan miscalculated her position and was still hit by the basket attached to one horse. Good thing she held on to Keneth and me for support. She told me later on that she got bruised.

I don't know what maneuver I did but for some reason, the buckle to one strap of my backpack got broken. Unluckily, it was the point where we had to go down from a plain part of the mountain, where fresh bukos are available for Php10, to a narrow pathway to have lunch near a mini-waterfall. I was able to balance the backpack successfully on one shoulder, credits to Yoga tree pose I've been doing. :))

Reaching the mini-falls, we settled at a dry spot of boulders to where I shared my famous-baon-for-hikes-tuna-sandwich to my newfound hike buds. After eating, ingeniously fixing my backpack, getting to know each other more and resting, we decided to continue to head to the peak but not before I grabbed on to a rock which had a hairy caterpillar planted unto it. It stung and I took off the little hairs that clung to my right ring finger and paddled my right hand unto the streaming water. As they say in Filipino, Malayo iyan sa bituka.

One weird thing that happened to us was finding an unopened bottle of rum about 10 minutes before reaching the peak. It was just lying there by the grass and we left it exactly where we saw it.

All exhaustion we felt was momentarily forgotten upon reaching the peak and in savoring the view of Laguna de Bay surrounding Mt. Sembrano.





Thursday, 24 October 2013

Ticked Off

It’s funny when people think so high of themselves and suddenly become experts on how to run other's lives
I don’t deserve being told off; you’re not my parents to give me unsolicited advice

The reason I feel attacked maybe is because we aren't even close
Feeling choked, any motive of concern becomes blurred of course

If I'm making a mistake, let me make it, let me learn
If you raise your voice on me, don’t expect me to be nice in return

If you are speaking out of jealousy, I’m sorry, I thought you were gay
A hint that nothing’s ever going to happen between us, I’m not desperate, got that? Okay.

Let’s go back to being acquaintances - if it’s personal I’m not sharing it to you
I’m sorry I thought you were my friend....well awww, BOOHOO




Wednesday, 23 October 2013

Enough is Enough

We saw each other, talked, ate, hung out like regular buddies do
I'm the leading man in the story and my lady-in-waiting isn't even Orlando Bloom

Why the hell do I even bother inviting him to group activities as an excuse to hang out
Repaid with reasons why he can't, it's okay to be a man about it, it is your sex for crying out loud

I don't deserve him, I don't deserve what I'm doing to myself
Used my heart at the expense of self-respect now what's left is an empty shelf

Enough is enough. I'm not rewinding back to scene one
The second act is supposedly more interesting, it stares a different man 

Our story wasn't that of love 
The credits can now roll